January 2012
3 posts
master manipulator
He accosted me upon entering my door. From behind, he pulled me hard against him, tilting my head to my left, up towards his face with his hand wide, wrapped around my neck and jaw. Six and a half feet tall, with broadness to match, he dwarfed me with his presence, using this to easily manipulate me physically. He reached his free hand down my shorts and roughly fingered me. The aggression made...
I needed to get laid. 2 more weeks in the woods just bred more desperation. I’d been eyeing him for a long time, meditating on what it would be like when we fucked, because it was inevitable. Cody touches me, grabs my arm, strokes my shoulder, every time I pass him. I signaled back. Leaned back into him as he hovered over me against the wall outside the bar as I took a drag. I squeezed his...
it's been awhile.
Honestly, I thought I was going to delete this account, but I kept it around. I cleaned up the page a bit, have some short stories in the works, and hopefully my writing has improved while I’ve been throwing my efforts into school work.
Reading back on my older posts, I’m a little self conscious about things; mainly my writing, my actions, and my feelings at the time. There is an...
May 2011
1 post
if I don't masturbate at least once a day
I’m pretty sure I’d explode.
February 2011
1 post
desperation
Started an internship. I’m camping out for 2 weeks at a time with a weekend off in between each hitch. Hard, manual labor. Swinging an axe. Digging holes. In the desert. Back country. Hike camp in, hike it out. Hike to the work site. Hike back to camp.
It feels like some sort of behavioral detention camp. If you met some of these guys I’m working with, you’d agree. Also, we are...
January 2011
9 posts
I've been reading your lips
Jay looks like the kind of guy who gives really good head. Getting head seems to be a hot button topic with me ever since I broke things off with my fuck buddy. Feels like I”ve become “a night head hunter looking for some head,” as The Cramps would say.
So that’s the new standard; must give head.
He looks like he’d be really good at it. I can’t explain what...
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going to the doctor is bad for my self esteem
I meant that comically
Yesterday during a check up on my lady parts I realized that doctor’s general comments of analysis can also be pictured coming from the mouth of a catty girlfriend. It seemed awfully back-handed. I was still amused.
“Ah, so your nipples are inverted but that’s nothing to worry about. They will pop out when you have a baby.” thanks for noticing....
hmm, knocked out several posts tonight. production...
That makes up for never ever posting, and trying to maintain the pretense that I am going for quality over quantity. I guess if I posted anymore sexcapades, it’d be pushing the line of prostitute status.
text messages from Ernesto (brief encounter from...
Ernesto: IFYOUCANREADTHISTHENYOUWILLGETGOODLUCKTONIGHTSOSENDTHISTOTENPEOPLEORYOUWILLDIE
Me: who is this?
E: Ernesto! I do tats. we met on nu yrs. you’re Taylor Rowe!
Me: oh. yeah. yes I am. I didn’t realize that I gave you my number.
E: can you send me a pic?
Me: No. my camera is broken. (no it wasn’t.) Which brother are you? The one with the neck tattoo? (shameless bitch)
...
Stan keeps trying to get me to meet him out. So now he’s pressing me for time, when I so anxiously wanted to patch things up before. His girlfriend is in town. I think I will do him a favor and just disappear for awhile.
I wanna leave this town. There’s not going to be much here for me in 6 months but bad habits and much trouble to be had. I need to get out of this rut before I...
Bryan squeezes my upper arm affectionately when I walk by. Bryan hugs me close and meaningfully when I am setting off. Bryan places a soft, open hand firmly on the small of my back when standing next to him. This was last night, and every night actually, wherein which we encounter another, when we join for a rendezvous out in the pub, when we meet over coffee and tea, when we meet in passing.
We...
my favorite part of masturbation
is when I’m lying there after an orgasm and can tap on my lady parts with my fingers and feel the corresponding nerves on the bottom of my feet tingle. It feels like I’m touching my feet without touching my feet.
I don’t know if anyone else experiences this but I like to think that they don’t and that I’m special.
December 2010
7 posts
Fuck your friends.
How did I wind up locked outside my house at 3 a.m. with a wasted stand up comedian trying to screw me and the vital keys to my car, bike, house (life) carelessly lodged below the car battery under the hood? From being a goddamned good samaritan.
He’d had a bad night, probably because people weren’t laughing at his jokes. I found him leaning his head against the wall outside of the...
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my roommate is
sitting across the room with me and telling me boring stories about her day and I just trying to look at porn on my laptop. FRUSTRATION.
Ran into Matt the other night. first time I see him in months, we sit at the bar and talk. Well, I stand and lean on the barstool with one leg propped on it, folded, facing forward towards the bartender, he is turned looking directly at me so that I am in between his open thighs. Right away, be places himself uncomfortably close to me, so much that I almost felt rude for impulsively leaning away....
going out has been more about making tonight so...
I think that this may be the first sign of an addictive personality.
November 2010
3 posts
Reblog if you can take off your bra without taking...
with one hand
Funhouse
I was feeling extra rockabilly when I’d left the house at 3 earlier that day and seemed to be riding the highs of this alter-ego. I had a laundry list of things to get done with all the obstinance of my summer self; trapped in notions to run off again, travel the continent in my car, sleeping on the ground, peeing outside.
After requesting something super strong to help me power through my...
Should've looked in the mirror this morning.
I just noticed I’ve been walking around work all day with a hickey.
FUCK!
October 2010
13 posts
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barista
Anxiously pumping the pedals of my bike over speed bumps, dodging poles, over stairs, and tracing a line parallel to the tight curbs of pedestrian walkways, I glide my way silently through the deserted medical park on a short cut to the coffee shop undetected under the dark of night. I think about the naughty things I will say to that barista as I almost involuntarily arch my back and grind the...
letters to men, #6
Dear Sam,
I don’t wish to over-romanticize our current dynamic, but I fear that it is too late as I have been anticipating your return since before you even left.
It’s hard for me to write you the letters I have and not make them too intimate. I care about you and don’t know how I got to feeling so strongly about you since I’ve only really known you for 2 months. I could...
letters to men, #5
Dear rapist,
I hope somebody drugs you, pushes you into a dark alley doorstep and destroys your internal organs through your anus with a broomstick. Or maybe a crowbar.
I hope you wake up in a haze consumed by confusion, self loathing, fear and pain.
I hope you are dead in a ditch somewhere.
letters to men, #4
Dear Tim,
Please stop following me. I’m not interested in you anymore. Stop cornering me in bars. Stop bringing up that night. Stop apologizing. Stop writing weird poetry about me. Seek professional help.
Same goes for you, Andy. Just because you gave me awesome head once (ok, twice) does not make you exempt.
letters to men, #2
Dear Jason, (or Jayson, because we clearly don’t know each other too well)
I’m going to be honest with you because that is the best thing I can do for myself.
Frankly I think it is offsetting that you show me your abs, tell me how much you can bench, blatantly and purposely assert that you are “loaded” and further attempt to buy my attention with your fancy car....
letters to men, #3
Dear Michael,
You are lazy in bed. We are no longer fuck buddies.
I had your dick in my mouth for 20 minutes and you couldn’t bother to go down on me? I don’t care if you came early. Let me reemphasize a point I made in conversation,
You “My dick doesn’t work after I cum.”
Me “Well obviously your mouth works just fine because you’re using it right...
letters to men, #1
Dear Bryan,
It hurts because I deserve a guy like you. Mellow, intellectual, worldly, big heart, but I can’t expect anything from a guy who is already in a relationship. Just can’t seem to see the forest through the trees in this one and admit that there really are great men out there for me who aren’t you. I want you so bad. And not even in a steamy hot dirty sexual fantasy...
I had an incredibly challenging week, thanks to a...
I felt overwhelmed and incredibly alone and started to think about things going wrong in my social life. As I rode the bus, I wrote blunt and honest letters to various men in my life saying exactly what I want to say to them to help clear my head. The next step is to find ways to come out and tell them about my findings.
is it a daddy issue thing if you are seriously attracted to a man significantly older than you?
I WAS watching porn until my roommates parents walked in. I was able to mute and close out all of the boxes I had pulled up just as they entered the room. I’m sitting across from them now typing this.
I JUST WANT TO MASTURBATE BEFORE WORK!
With every time I see you, you become less and less in control of your body language, and all the while, you express more and more excitement at my presence.
I wish we could have a relationship.
August 2010
10 posts
Period Sex is like fucking 8 Months Pregnant.
wrong. dead people don’t bleed.
cestlaculture:
devinachu:
mindlight:
Or Fucking Dead people.
You ever fucked a dead person?
Mmkay then.
Just don’t do it.
Well this one time…
Nevermind
Necrophilia, look it up.
dear ultimate guy
you are ultimately married.
You sauntered over to me very close and whispered, “Who’s this strange man in your personal space?”
Don’t talk about my personal space, especially about you being in it.
My Tucson
DISCLAIMER: I AM SUPER DRUNK despite my efforts to put down the bottle and detox for a month
Preface; This will be the gripe of a lifetime. One gripe to rule them all. Hopefully the first, only, and last of such posts. I thought about blogging this elsewhere, but decided hat it needs to be under a pen name and under a blog not linked to my facebook.
First off, let me say, what a shit day this...
June 2010
12 posts
Saw a good band tonight
and imagined screwing them all simultaneously, because I was aroused by those three as a musical organism.
I saw myself running my nails across the broad shoulders of the lead as he moaned a C sharp with his bluesy baritone voice, while tugging on the long hair of he bass player and licking the chest, from sternum to navel, of the shirtless drummer.
I believe this urge be the result of the loud...
I couldn't get past the fucking women tonight.
So what if I’m starting to sound like a real fucking feminist, but I am under the impression that 90% of the female population makes it a priority to be a sex object or advertise themselves as such in order to get attention.
Last time I checked, I get just enough of attention from being a complete badass, and if that comes off as sexy, it’s definitely not due to the fact that...
Luke,
You better watch what I bring to the field when our teams are playing off.
Because running through and slapping down your perfect passes to my opponent felt damn good today. I know you were impressed.
I can show off, too.